hey Jessie. i just found this xanga and i had to write in here before i left it. i miss u soo much Jessie. i wish u didn't do what u did but i know u had a hard life and u did what was best for u. it hurt me so much to see u lying there in the casket motionless. i just wanted to grab u and shake u and u open your eyes. but i knew that wasn't going to happen. i love you Jessie even though i only knew u for a year or so u've really put a dent in my heart. that will stay there forever. i must leave now.. but not for long and i will be waiting for the day that i'll hear that beautiful laugh of yours agen. i love you Jessica Marie Amaral. your in my heart forever

love always, Ashley Murphy

If you ever thought that no1 would miss u if u were gone, then ur wrong

Ive proven you wrong with every tear I have shed,

with every memory in my head,

with every single day that I remember that ur dead

I miss you so much, I cant get it out of my head,

That picture of ur cold hand is embedded in my thoughts,

Jessie, y do u have to be dead?

I try to think of you and not of me

I try to remember that that’s what u wanted

But I cant, its killing me

I need you HERE WITH ME

I remember all we went trough,

ive known you since we were little kids,

I remember that simile, that laugh, and those EYES that said everything needed to say

U did the WORST thing possible,

u know how i feel,

I know that u’ve gone through it,

so y did u put me though that pain of losing a friend AGAIN.

I keep having dreams of u, I keep having them every night

Just the other day,

I killed myself to be with u and rose,

Its was the best dream I ever had

and then I woke up.

But when I was there for a bit,

I saw u laughing and similing, u were happy, and u didn’t regret.

So I believe that that’s the truth, and im glad for u.

But I still cry myself to sleep,

I stare at ur picture constantly,

I remember u with everything that I see.

Ur everywhere Jessie.

I cant stand it,

I want to be with u,

but I know that that’s not going to happen,

but eventually it will.

I will see you again my friend,

I know that for a fact,

So for now I must stay strong,

And be happy for you and never forget.

See ya Jessie, ur in a better place, and ill see u again. I love you so much, good bye for now. Tell rose I said hi.

hey jessie...i miss you so much girl. i remember when we were in 1st grade and i just moved in next door to you, you were the first friend i made. I would just hop over the fence and chill with you. we used to play on the swings and go to 7-11 together. I hope they have the glow up there, cus i know you loved it, even tho i dragged u there. I wish you could see how much people really did care about you. You have no idea. I will always think of you when I pray. Tell the big man i said hi. Please watch over Raul. He really needs you. I wrote this for you...hope you like.

Dear Friend

Dear my well loved friend,
Why did you choose to go?
Why did you close your curtains?
Thus ending your much loved show.

Dear my hurting friend,
Why didn't you stop to think?
Knowing suicide's not the way,
But yet you left within a blink.

Dear my once happy friend,
Why didn't you let it out?
Why did you hide your hurt
Behind that smile full of doubt?

Dear my long lost friend,
Will you come back for me?
I'm not the same without you
If you could only see.

Dear my now happy friend,
If you're watching from above
I hope you're in a better place
Where you can see that you're loved.

By: Amy Castro

We love you jessie, and always will.

  love forever and minute,

Amy C.



P.S. Don't go spitting in anyone's nachos!